Aasshhlleeyy ;)

blog for ashley!

she made her blog yesterday . her posts are similar to mines i guess thats why we both related to wanting to blog and stuff. it all started with us "hating liars. cheaters, and users" like we both started agreeing that boys wasnt nothing. and that they didnt know how to treat something good when its right there in there face, my facebook status led to us blogging which we both agreed was good for getting our emotions out! im so glad to have her to blog with meee!

omg you think when your young and just starting to have sex. if you tell your boyfriend no or your not ready he gets mad and hell probably break up with you! that is so true in some cases which means he only wanted to fuck in the first place! but girls you are better than that ! love yourself more than that! just say no! being with him isnt everything

you say yes once and he will expect you to keep saying yes you are so much more! dont settle for that and if you dont feel loved know that i love you

britannny loves you all

blame it on me ;)

looking in my diary

i realized ive taken alot from

the ppl in my past relations

why do i do so much ?

give so much ?

try so hard?

cry in the end?

i guess i love that in love feeling

i know theres more to me

lately i play ppl

before they get the chance to play me

you can blame my new found attitude on me

this is random. idk what to say about it i dont have fancy title or captions just my words and how i felt

last jan. 12- 2009

i found myself lost or stuck

i cant decide which to say to make you understand how i felt about "HIM" .

i loved him he was my world. he could say jump my response how high

! i loved him . or more i loved how i felt when i was with him.

i loved the person i was when i was with him.

i was on top of the world

imagine me britanny

from north carolina on the greatest high ever

LOVE

sooner than later like all highs and addictions there was a low and withdrawl

you see i left him ! i couldnt take the pain

i was hurting because he was loving more than me

how could you promise me something and give it away ;(

most people

this is not a post just how im feeling right now!


most people wanna be known, most people wanna be seen
i just wanna be heard! im one voice how loud can i really be?
my tears go unheard. my heart beat is unheard!
but im here and im standing
i dont want money
i dont want fancy things
they'd be nice to have
but thats not what im wanting
i wanna be heard!

I WANNA BE HEARD

right now im feeling as though im one person but i wanna do something like make changes ! but im one person how much can i really do?

you always seem to make me feel

you always seem to make me feel
that love is real.
when im around you i get nothing but chills.

up my spine and down my back
around you i can never relax



this is a poem i started to write and i never finished, i wrote this with my second boyfriend. i swore that was love to. it wasnt i was dumbfounded and in strong like. i never finished this poem. and we arent together either

i'd do crazy things for love

i used to get up in the middle of the night.

or whenever my mom was asleep and id sneak out and go to "HIs" house.

i didnt care whether it was raining or snowing.

i just knew he wanted to see me

so i went

i was in love head over heels. and i knew he felt the same.

i was sceared most of the time

i was only 16

now i look back like what was wrong with me?

was i that young and dumb?

maybe what i was feeling was love?

we had sex i remember i used to lay there and wonder

what the hell!

what is this ? how you show somebody you love them?

it hurted! Everytime, i didnt understand what was going on

but he was my first love

and wanted to do it

"so i did"

a far more experienced lover than i was

i was just starting out,

new to the whole thing

i practically did what he wanted me to

now were not even together,